28 May 2010

Motherhood.


I woke up today, as I have been, in a puddle of my own milk and baby throw-up, in the two centimeters of space allocated to me in our bed. One of my breasts was hanging out of my nursing bra, somewhat uncomfortably, a tiny baby suckling on it. The other baby, the big one, had her hands wrapped around my neck, possessively, and I had a bit of a hard time breathing.

And then I looked at the two of them sleeping, and the most intense feeling of peace and love and joy rushed over me.

Motherhood. That obscure point between sheer exhaustion and pure bliss.

Thank you, my darlings, for letting me know true happiness.


Some links...

... picturing motherhood. Beautiful.
... Fé and Sisie need this hat.
... I am making something like this for the princess quarters.
... I like this wallpaper (via design files).
... doors and windows.... sigh.
... we are cooking this on Sunday.

Happy weekend!

15 comments:

NH said...

I simply love spinach - could possibly eat it every day, especially if it's the fresh one. Well, don't want to spoil your appetite but yesterday when I wanted to warm up frozen spinach to serve it with fish and potatoes, I found a huge dead moth in the heated spinach pot. I was close to throw up.

So doesn't this fit perfectly to your story?

Well, I decited to serve snow-peas instead of the spinach - that saved the meal!

Pamela said...

Those mornings are just so familiar - to the detail, really! And I adore that wallpaper! But I don't get the hat, at all! ;)

shys said...

you are so lucky and beautiful! and so are your daughters!

Franziska Patterson said...

mmmmmm, yes, motherhood - gotta love it. There's nothing like having those little ones.

So, speaking of food, I've been thinking to pass on all these simple recipes I've been making recently that I figured you'd like (no dairy, no gluten). One of them I haven't tried yet, but it's a super easy recipe for crepes - using blended oats, almond milk and...an egg, or maybe it was flax meal and water, to make the batter. Anyway, we're off to our next trip, so I'll have to do it another time.

Minna said...

Sound familiar to me... I love your picture :)

Merja said...

You know sometimes i'm a bit scared if i'm gonna be a good mother but i think you just put it down in words so nicely! Thank you for that!

Stine said...

haha. ich hab vor müdigkeit auch nur willkürlich links in die blogosphäre geworfen. und liebe frau schlitzohr, es ist ein schmaler grad dazwischen kitschig und rührend zu sein und Sie schaffen es immer, mich zu rühren. danke dafür.

sirja said...

Lovely pics, I especially like the sequence...
crying, crying, calming down, mmmm, mommy...

ieva jansone said...

:) i had to laugh reading about your waking up ;) (perhaps not sooo "bad" but something similar, i know it too;)
lovely pictures, a compliment to your husband (?)..
and i dig that hat/hats!! and spinach - yes, we have it every weekend, lately :)

Cookie Queen said...

Really sweet photos!

Isa said...

Pamela. Haha, what's wrong with the hat? For dress-up? No? :D

Fran, yes, please do!

Ieva, remote release... ;)

LINDSAY said...

I remember mornings like those!

the sleepy time gal said...

i love, love, love that.

Katarina said...

so beautiful.

you look so happy! <3

Lollipop said...

I just laughed a lot! I can see the scene...
the love of a mother...